He called her a vibrant supernova, an electric current. He described our relationship as a comfort, and me as a fragile burden he couldn't bear to hurt.
My found family had found each other, and I was the inconvenient truth standing in their way. The two people who had pulled me from the shadows were now the ones casting me back into them. They had given me so much; this was the one thing I could give back.
Their freedom.
So while they planned my surprise party, I quietly accepted a multi-year research contract at the ends of the earth. I was going to the Arctic to disappear.
Chapter 1
My life started in shadows, not just the literal ones cast by the rotating roster of foster homes, but the shadows of neglect, of never quite belonging. I was a ghost in other people' s houses, a quiet observer of lives that weren' t mine. Every smile felt temporary, every kindness a loan I couldn't repay. I learned early on that love was a fragile thing, easily withdrawn, and always, always conditional.
Then, the sun broke through.
Carly Andrews burst into my sterile world like a supernova, all vibrant colors and infectious laughter. She saw me, the shy, bookish girl hiding in the library, and decided, without asking, that I was her best friend. She dragged me to parties, taught me to dance, and for the first time, I felt like I wasn't just existing, but living. She gave me confidence, a voice, and a place to belong.
Finn Medina followed, a quiet storm of protective charm. He walked into my life like he' d always been there, a steady, unwavering presence. He didn' t just offer kindness; he offered a shield. He saw the scars etched on my soul from years of being overlooked, and he vowed to protect them. He was my protector, my confidant, my rock.
I remember his confession, whispered under a canopy of stars on a summer night, the air thick with the scent of jasmine. His words were a promise, a future spelled out in tender glances and gentle touches.
"Elva," he' d said, his voice husky, "You' re the only home I' ve ever known. My heart found its way to you, and it' s never leaving."
It was everything I' d ever longed for, a safe harbor after a lifetime of drifting. I was lucky, I thought, luckier than any girl from the system deserved to be. I had a best friend who was family, and a boyfriend who was my whole world. They were my universe, my anchors in a stormy sea.
My 23rd birthday. I woke up that morning, a silly smile on my face. Finn had promised a surprise. Carly had spent weeks hinting about a grand celebration. I felt cherished, loved. Truly loved.
I went to charge my phone in Finn' s study. His laptop was open on his desk, a familiar icon glowing on the screen. It was an old journaling application he' d coded for us years ago, a shared space for our thoughts and memories. I hadn't opened it in ages. A wave of nostalgia washed over me. I clicked it open, wanting to relive some of our old, happy moments.
I scrolled through the familiar entries, little love notes, shared dreams, silly inside jokes. My heart warmed. Then, I saw it. A new folder, labeled "Private - Do Not Open." My breath hitched. Finn had never kept secrets from me, not like this. A cold dread seeped into my veins, an unfamiliar sensation in the safe space I' d built with him.
My finger hovered, then, as if compelled by an unseen force, clicked. Inside were video files, dated from just a few weeks ago. The most recent one was titled, "My Confession."
I pressed play.
Finn' s face filled the screen, etched with a torment I' d never seen. He was sitting on the edge of his bed, his hair disheveled, eyes red-rimmed.
"I don' t know what to do," he whispered, his voice cracking. "I love her, Carly. I think... I' m in love with Carly."
The words hit me like a physical blow, stealing the air from my lungs. My entire body went numb. He talked about Carly' s vibrancy, her laugh, the way she made him feel alive in a way he hadn't realized he was missing. He spoke of a "spark," an "intensity" that had blinded him. He spoke of us as a comfort, a steady rhythm, but not the electric current he felt with her.
He was crying. Big, fat tears streamed down his face.
"I can' t hurt Elva," he choked out, "She' s... fragile. She needs me. But Carly... I can' t stop thinking about Carly."
The video ended. The quiet hum of the laptop fan was the only sound in the room. My world didn' t just crack; it shattered into a million pieces. They had fallen in love. My best friend. My boyfriend. The two people who had pulled me from the shadows.
I was an obstacle. A fragile burden.
A bitter laugh escaped my lips. It tasted like ash. My "found family" had found each other, and I was the third wheel, the inconvenient truth they couldn' t face.
I couldn't force them into a choice. I couldn't be the reason they carried guilt for the rest of their lives. They had given me so much. This was the one thing I could give them in return.
I pulled out my phone, my fingers shaking, and typed an email. "Professor Davies, I'd like to formally accept the NOAA Arctic research position. I can be ready to deploy immediately."
My breath hitched, a silent sob stuck in my throat. I watched them from the window, Finn pulling Carly close under the shelter of the porch, her head resting on his shoulder. Their bodies were pressed together, a secret language only they understood. My vision blurred through the rain-streaked glass. They looked perfect. They belonged together.
It was my birthday, a day meant for celebration. When I finally walked into the restaurant, my cheeks were cold from the rain, but my smile was fixed.
"Sorry I'm late," I chirped, my voice sounding unnaturally bright. "Traffic was a nightmare."
Carly jumped up, her face etched with concern. She wrapped her arms around me, holding me tight. "Elva! Are you okay? You look drenched."
Finn, sitting opposite, looked up. His eyes met mine, then quickly darted away. A flicker of something-guilt, perhaps? Shame?-crossed his face.
"Yeah, I'm fine," I said, pulling away from Carly. "Just a bit wet."
He didn't move to hug me, didn't offer his usual warm embrace. The casual intimacy that had once bound us was gone, replaced by a chasm that yawned wide and deep. He just stared at the table, his fingers tracing invisible patterns on the linen.
Carly, ever the perceptive one, squeezed my hand. "Finn, are you going to say something?"
He cleared his throat, his gaze still avoiding mine. "You're late." His voice was flat, devoid of its usual teasing warmth.
My heart ached. He truly loves her, I thought. He can't even pretend anymore.
"Let's get some drinks," I suggested, trying to lighten the suffocating atmosphere. "I'm starving."
The waiter came over. I ordered a glass of the driest white wine, something bitter to match the taste in my mouth. It felt like every sip was corroding my insides, dissolving what little was left of my happiness.
I glanced at the cake, sitting untouched on a nearby trolley, its candles unlit. Last year, Finn had surprised me with a flash mob. The year before, Carly had organized a scavenger hunt across the city. This year, the silence was deafening. The air was thick with unspoken words, with the weight of their secret, and my own unshed tears.
"So," I began, my voice a little too loud, "What are we waiting for? Let's eat!"
Finn finally looked at me, his eyes clouded with something I couldn't quite decipher. "Elva," he started, his voice barely above a whisper, "There's something we need to tell you."