Un Pélerin d'Angkor by Pierre Loti
Un Pélerin d'Angkor by Pierre Loti
Je ne sais pas si beaucoup d'hommes ont comme moi depuis l'enfance pressenti toute leur vie. Rien ne m'est arrivé que je n'aie obscurément prévu dès mes premières années.
Les ruines d'Angkor, je me souviens si bien de certain soir d'avril, un peu voilé, où en vision elles m'apparurent! Cela se passait dans mon ?musée? d'enfant, très petite pièce, en haut de ma maison familiale, où j'avais réuni beaucoup de coquillages, d'oiseaux des ?les, d'armes et de parures océaniennes, tout ce qui pouvait me parler des pays lointains. Or il était décidé tout à fait à cette époque, par mes parents, que je resterais près d'eux, que jamais je n'irais courir le monde, comme mon frère a?né qui venait de mourir là-bas en Extrême-Asie.
Ce soir-là donc, écolier toujours inattentif, j'étais allé m'enfermer au milieu de ces choses troublantes, pour flaner plut?t que de finir mes devoirs, et je feuilletais des papiers jaunis, revenus de l'Indo-Chine dans les bagages de mon frère mort. Des carnets de notes. Deux ou trois livres chinois. Ensuite un numéro de je ne sais quelle revue coloniale où était contée la découverte de ruines colossales perdues au fond des forêts du Siam; il y avait une image devant laquelle je m'arrêtai saisi de frisson: de grandes tours étranges que des ramures exotiques enla?aient de toutes parts, les temples de la mystérieuse Angkor! Pas un instant d'ailleurs je ne doutai que je les conna?trais, envers et contre tous, malgré les impossibilités, malgré les défenses.
Pour y songer mieux, j'allai m'accouder à la fenêtre de mon ?musée?, celle de toute la maison d'où l'on voyait le plus loin; il y avait d'abord les vieux toits du tranquille voisinage, puis les arbres centenaires des remparts, au delà enfin la rivière par où les navires s'en vont à l'Océan.
Et j'eus cette fois la prescience très nette d'une vie de voyages et d'aventures, avec des heures magnifiques, presque un peu fabuleuses comme pour quelque prince oriental, et aussi des heures misérables infiniment. Dans cet avenir de mystère, très agrandi par mon imagination enfantine, je me voyais devenant une sorte de héros de légende, idole aux pieds d'argile, fascinant des ames par milliers, adoré des uns, mais suspecté et honni des autres. Pour que mon personnage f?t plus romanesque, il fallait qu'il y e?t une ombre à la renommée telle que je la souhaitais... Cette ombre, que serait-ce bien?... Quoi de chimérique et d'effarant?... Pirate peut-être... Oui, il ne m'e?t pas trop déplu d'être soup?onné de piraterie, tout là-bas, sur des mers à peine connues...
Ensuite m'apparut mon propre déclin, mon retour au foyer, bien plus tard, le c?ur lassé et les cheveux blanchissants. Ma maison familiale serait restée pareille, pieusement conservée,--mais ?à et là, percées dans les murs, des portes clandestines conduiraient à un palais de Mille et une Nuits, plein des pierreries de Golconde, de tout mon butin fantastique. Et, comme la Bible était en ce temps-là mon livre quotidien, j'entendais murmurer dans ma tête des versets d'Ecclésiaste sur la vanité des choses. Rassasié des spectacles de ce monde, tout en rentrant, vieilli, dans ce même petit musée de mon enfance, je disais en moi-même: ?J'ai tout éprouvé, je suis allé partout, j'ai tout vu, etc...?--Et, parmi tant de phrases déjà tristement chantantes qui vinrent alors me bercer à cette fenêtre, l'une, je ne sais pourquoi, devait rester gravée dans mon souvenir, celle-ci: ?Au fond des forêts du Siam, j'ai vu l'étoile du soir se lever sur les grandes ruines d'Angkor...?
Un coup de sifflet, à la fois impérieux et doux, me fit soudain redevenir le petit enfant soumis qu'en réalité je n'avais pas cessé d'être. Il partait d'en bas, de la cour aux vieux murs enguirlandés de plantes. Je l'aurais reconnu entre mille: c'était l'appel coutumier de mon père, chaque fois que j'étais légèrement en faute. Et je répondis: ?Je suis là-haut dans mon musée. Que veux tu, bon père? Que je descende??
Il avait d? entrer dans mon bureau et jeter les yeux sur mes devoirs inachevés.
--Oui, descends vite, mon petit, finir ta version grecque, si tu veux être libre après d?ner pour aller au cirque.
(J'adorais le cirque; mais je peinais cette année-là sous la férule d'un professeur exécré que nous appelions le Grand-Singe-Noir, et mes devoirs trop longs n'étaient jamais finis.)
Donc, je descendis m'atteler à cette version. La cour, nullement triste pourtant, entre ses vieux petits murs garnis de rosiers et de jasmins, me sembla trop étroite, trop enclose, et je jugeai trop nébuleux, un peu sinistre même, le crépuscule d'avril qui y tombait à cette heure: j'avais en tête le ciel bleu, l'espace, les mers,--et les forêts du Siam où s'élèvent, parmi des banians, les tours de la prodigieuse Angkor.
Au Maroc est un reportage fort intéressant que Pierre Loti a écrit pendant sa mission dans ce pays, à la suite d'une délégation guidée par le ministre plénipotentiaire Patenôtre, invité par le Sultan de Fès. Nous sommes en pleine époque coloniale, mais l'écrivain, de par sa nature cosmopolite, était déjà arabophile, et de plus marocophile, et n'avait aucun préjugé à l'égard de l'Islam. Il produit ainsi un essai passionnant qui décrit les paysages, les villes, les villages, les gens, avec amour et passion, sans toutefois jamais céder à la banalité de la « carte postale », et, d'ailleurs, il décrit les inévitables misères avec un réalisme sans pitié. Un livre précieux à la fois pour ceux qui veulent revivre les atmosphères romantiques de l'exotisme de l'époque et ceux qui veulent comprendre une importante partie du monde arabe dans ses transformations complexes.
There is to-day a widely spread new interest in child life, a desire to get nearer to children and understand them. To be sure child study is not new; every wise parent and every sympathetic teacher has ever been a student of children; but there is now an effort to do more consciously and systematically what has always been done in some way.
Extrait : "En mer, aux environs de deux heures du matin, par une nuit calme, sous un ciel plein d'étoiles. Yves se tenait sur la passerelle auprès de moi, et nous causions du pays, absolument nouveau pour nous deux, où nous conduisaient cette fois les hasards de notre destinée. C'était le lendemain que nous devions atterrir ; cette attente nous amusait et nous formions mille projets."
The first appearance of Pierre Loti's works, twenty years ago, causeda sensation throughout those circles wherein the creations ofintellect and imagination are felt, studied, and discussed. The authorwas one who, with a power which no one had wielded before him, carriedoff his readers into exotic lands, and whose art, in appearance mostsimple, proved a genuine enchantment for the imagination. It was thetime when M. Zola and his school stood at the head of the literarymovement. There breathed forth from Loti's writings an all-penetratingfragrance of poesy, which liberated French literary ideals from theheavy and oppressive yoke of the Naturalistic school. Truth now soaredon unhampered pinions, and the reading world was completely won by theunsurpassed intensity and faithful accuracy with which he depicted thealluring charms of far-off scenes, and painted the naive soul of theraces that seem to endure in the isles of the Pacific as survivingrepresentatives of the world's infancy.
Trigger/Content Warning: This story contains mature themes and explicit content intended for adult audiences(18+). Reader discretion is advised. It includes elements such as BDSM dynamics, explicit sexual content, toxic family relationships, occasional violence and strong language. This is not a fluffy romance. It is intense, raw and messy, and explores the darker side of desire. ***** "Take off your dress, Meadow." "Why?" "Because your ex is watching," he said, leaning back into his seat. "And I want him to see what he lost." ••••*••••*••••* Meadow Russell was supposed to get married to the love of her life in Vegas. Instead, she walked in on her twin sister riding her fiance. One drink at the bar turned to ten. One drunken mistake turned into reality. And one stranger's offer turned into a contract that she signed with shaking hands and a diamond ring. Alaric Ashford is the devil in a tailored Tom Ford suit. Billionaire CEO, brutal, possessive. A man born into an empire of blood and steel. He also suffers from a neurological condition-he can't feel. Not objects, not pain, not even human touch. Until Meadow touches him, and he feels everything. And now he owns her. On paper and in his bed. She wants him to ruin her. Take what no one else could have. He wants control, obedience... revenge. But what starts as a transaction slowly turns into something Meadow never saw coming. Obsession, secrets that were never meant to surface, and a pain from the past that threatens to break everything. Alaric doesn't share what's his. Not his company. Not his wife. And definitely not his vengeance.
"My sister threatens to take my mate. And I let her keep him." Born without a wolf, Seraphina is the disgrace of her pack-until a drunken night leaves her pregnant and married to Kieran, the ruthless Alpha who never wanted her. But their decade-long marriage was no fairytale. For ten years, she endured the humiliation: No Luna title. No mating mark. Just cold sheets and colder stares. When her perfect sister returned, Kieran filed for divorce the same night. And her family was happy to see her marriage broken. Seraphina didn't fight but left silently. However, when danger struck, shocking truths emerged: ☽ That night wasn't an accident ☽ Her "defect" is actually a rare gift ☽ And now every Alpha-including her ex-husband-will fight to claim her Too bad she's done being owned. *** Kieran's growl vibrated through my bones as he pinned me against the wall. The heat of him seared through layers of fabric. "You think leaving is that easy, Seraphina?" His teeth grazed the unmarked skin of my throat. "You. Are. Mine." A hot palm slid up my thigh. "No one else will ever touch you." "You had ten years to claim me, Alpha." I bared my teeth in a smile. "Funny how you only remember I'm yours... when I'm walking away."
Abandoned as a child and orphaned by murder, Kathryn swore she'd reclaim every shred of her stolen birthright. When she returned, society called her an unpolished love-child, scoffing that Evan had lost his mind to marry her. Only Evan knew the truth: the quiet woman he cradled like porcelain hid secrets enough to set the city trembling. She doubled as a legendary healer, an elusive hacker, and the royal court's favorite perfumer. At meetings, the directors groaned at the lovey-dovey couple, "Does she really have to be here?" Evan shrugged. "Happy wife, happy life." Soon her masks fell, and those who sneered bowed in awe.
Lyric had spent her life being hated. Bullied for her scarred face and hated by everyone-including her own mate-she was always told she was ugly. Her mate only kept her around to gain territory, and the moment he got what he wanted, he rejected her, leaving her broken and alone. Then, she met him. The first man to call her beautiful. The first man to show her what it felt like to be loved. It was only one night, but it changed everything. For Lyric, he was a saint, a savior. For him, she was the only woman that had ever made him cum in bed-a problem he had been battling for years. Lyric thought her life would finally be different, but like everyone else in her life, he lied. And when she found out who he really was, she realized he wasn't just dangerous-he was the kind of man you don't escape from. Lyric wanted to run. She wanted freedom. But she desired to navigate her way and take back her respect, to rise above the ashes. Eventually, she was forced into a dark world she didn't wish to get involved with.
Vesper's marriage to Julian Sterling was a gilded cage. One morning, she woke naked beside Damon Sterling, Julian's terrifying brother, then found a text: Julian's mistress was pregnant. Her world shattered, but the real nightmare had just begun. Julian's abuse escalated, gaslighting Vesper, funding his secret life. Damon, a germaphobic billionaire, became her unsettling anchor amidst his chaos. As "Iris," Vesper exposed Julian's mistress, Serena Sharp, sparking brutal war: poisoned drinks, a broken leg, and the horrifying truth-Julian murdered her parents, trapping Vesper in marriage. The man she married was a killer. Broken and betrayed, Vesper was caught between monstrous brothers, burning with injustice. Refusing victimhood, Vesper reclaimed her identity. Fueled by vengeance, she allied with Damon, who vowed to burn his empire for her. Julian faced justice, but matriarch Eleanor's counterattack forced Vesper's choice as a hitman aimed for her.
My Luna became an alpha after I rejected her : she was my Luna. I rejected her. Now she's stronger than ever and she has my son. Amelia's world shattered the day her daughter died-and her mate, Alpha Aiden of the Red Moon Pack, divorced her to reunite with his ex-girlfriend. Cast out, disgraced, and accused of poisoning her own child, Amelia was stripped of her title and driven from her pack. The next morning, her lifeless body was found at the border.They all believed she was dead.But she wasn't. Far from the ashes of betrayal, Amelia rebuilt herself-rising from rejection and ruin to become the first female Alpha of Velaris, the most powerful and respected pack in the realm. She also carried a secret Aiden never discovered:She was pregnant-with his son.Years later, fate brings them face to face once more. A deadly disease is spreading through the packs, and the only one who can stop it is the renowned doctor they thought had died. When Aiden sees the boy at her side-his eyes, his blood-he realizes the truth.He didn't just lose his Luna. He destroyed the mother of his child.And now, she's everything he's not-stronger, wiser, untouchable. Will she heal the pack that betrayed her?Will she ever let him near her heart again?Or is his punishment simply living with the consequences?
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