Have you ever been in love with someone so much that it physically hurts? Not being able to be with them is soul crushing. All I wanted was Jonah but I let my fear control me. I friend-zoned him thinking it was for the best but now I wasn't so sure I could be without him...

Chapter 1 How it all started

Prologue

Have you ever been in love? I'm talking about the kind of love that makes you feel so connected to another person. The kind that lets you know you've found your soulmate. I have. Only I let him go.

I decided I rather have him as a friend then nothing at all. I didn't trust that our love could last. I kept my love hidden even though it was slowly killing me inside. I thought we would have all the time in the world to be together.

I had to work on my trust issues before I could give him my heart. I didn't want to hurt him. I knew he would always be there. He would never leave me. He was the type that was always there when you needed him.

Once I fixed my flaws, we could be together. We have all the time in the world. In the future we will be together. Only that's not what happened. I never thought my hero would be taken down by cancer. This is my story about love and loss.

About life showing me how short it truly is. I didn't have as much time with him as I had thought...