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dar

me

ul blue-grey eyes searching my face so tenderly that I nearly

t speak or touch him, b

e says softly, stopping

myself to not cry, to hold it a

ng all the love I crave, all the yearning I feel. H

icipating his feel but like always it never comes and w

imagination,

lucina

him, re

nds me of that. When anywhere I look I see him, so cl

ro, I m

ing inside with every pass

his so p

thrilling, but I never once stopped to wo

dn't wish to not have fallen in

e is the best thing hap

ould at least breath easily. So I could at l

wi

from my self pity. I inhale a s

, and I open the gate. Stepping inside I walk toward my destination. On reaching I fall down on my knees in front of t

cemetery of my family, I then put a single white rose on my brother's to

beautiful so

04 to 09

to handle. You would have started dating and I bet you were going to be a heartbreaker, leaving lin

a chance to experience life. Grandma says you are in much more better place, I hope she is right. I hope you are in heave

ould be. There hasn't been a day I don't miss you or feel the loss of your absence but I always assure myself with the fact you are watching over me, guiding me. At ni

o King but he prefers to be called King from everyone except me. I love him, mummy. He is not perfect but he is perfect for me. He loved me back, just as cr

d him so much, it physically hurts being away from him. He is the best man I've known after you. I

is just as good as anyone else. He is my 'the one' and I let him go. I will do it again if given a second

ead of going tomorrow I'm leaving today so she is pretty angry with me, I think she is also angry because I left Romero. Do you know she was totally smitten by him and she even acte

nd I promise to come back soon." I s

h my chin lifted high because I'm daughter of Edmund and Mary Ray, who lived their life throughout their u

ng concerned. "Are you feeling okay?" He

t I manage to s

ant to go back today? You know your roommate is prob

ans R

m for three months. And I think Syd is just goin

im has not been any difficult considering he doesn't come to college regularly. And he hasn't made any attempt to cal

stopped associating with the group leaving Sydney and

nse amount of pain, it is as though my hea

ble to bear the

hing and making love to someone

ture. With another girl, who would not increase the pace of his episodes, who wo

n as long as he is happy,

conscienc

time alone. That is one of the things I love about her, she never im

right?" She smiles,

is the only kind I'm

mile, "Yup. Tell your boyfri

so much weight, and you are barely living as it is. I don't w

I came home for winter break. I couldn't go on few hours with crumpli

w. And that's called break up

a brow,

'm n

ould ever truly g

ind, I answer fir

he stupid voic

awa

y hell, even I'm not fooled by it. They are

at him to pulp, doesn't matter if he is wrong or not. No one hurts my baby girl and ge

not a

lly, don't do any reckless thing on

irl, she knows who or when to date. And she is far less reckless than you so quit your lecturing or you are g

ou can bet your sweet ass I'm sleeping on my bed and beside m

hen he gives he

of our argument by some sensual remarks that would get me so embarrassed and I'd start stammering like a fool forgetting the origin of a

ss, jealousy, anger and

ing loved

He has once said. I'd give anythin

iss him, a

g me, drowning me into an

could keep fighting it, un

s Sydney would say. "Take care of grandma for me

r it. You sure you don't want me to come

ive him same re

rented to come here, "Now get going a

side, "Will do." I call

hatever life has s

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