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ir

d Akira,

, my

m silently to take his words back eve

ly. I'm not his Ray and he i

een here for past three months but no pain, nothing compares to

. I don't want to, I want to disappear from here to my ro

it's my right but now, I don't have that right. Christ! He is near, oh so near, his addicting scent reaches my nostril making m

see what he is feeling. He has turned off his emotio

a single word but its n

of my lungs, I am dying to say that I hate myself for leaving him, even if it's for him, that I hate him for taking th

ere." I manage to say witho

't you? Thinking you wouldn't have to face your mistake. Now look,

a

uis

men

het

tro

ouching my tongue. Its irony, really, the one person I thought I wou

l mistake and I would be proud to bear the title of its maker. But he is not a mistake, he is my so

e angry with m

You don't know a shit." His voice never once rises up, he speaks evenly as i

e as if I'm some stranger to him. As if we never made lo

utter and step asid

ssible to dismiss him like he does to everyone. He is a f

ep away from him, he has me in

aks at that very moment. Fire erupts in my lower belly, my whole body experience the sensation of fami

dne

d his k

like he has been dying to taste them. I close my eyes and respond with same intensity because I know I'm starving for him. I let go all the pent up emotio

gruffly between kiss as his arm tighte

ike being home after a long time. I reciprocate it, punishing him as well, I moan when he sucks my tong

su

it's hurting me, choki

I couldn't hold the

The fire diminishes instantly and my stomach churns painfully. It leaves a acidic tastes on my heart

aring, "I won't. Not ag

at

and kisses me again. With same fury, he lingers wit

t like all my imaginary Romero would do. There is no sign

g of my lips and trembling of my body. He really was here and he reall

again. This

he mean

If so then he'd like it to know that I'm a

the same person who would move heaven and earth just so I wouldn't face a slightest of t

es sensing them wet. I don't

look at me the same way you used to. The look filled

ng it up I pull out my phone to see an unknown number. I am about to reject it b

answer it, "Hello." M

oice from other side i

at, "Excuse me?

ave met me if you remember. Damon Ross.

was deliberately provoking Romero. He had said

ouldn't

Romero telling

he man from th

e man." I could almost

rrogant piece of crap! Still I have to admit h

your boyfriend to

rrect him that Romer

hate tha

ng tabs on me?" I

since your boyfri

at

said a word a

fter I l

I ask, s

I told him my reasons. You sure have picked a piece of work, Akira

I couldn't hol

n phone. I would like to me

trust him, knowing he had his guys follo

my curiosity gets bet

find mysel

next weekend. Does th

I am not very

e control over the situation. I'm not going with this stranger a

ll call you whe

nd before adding,

, tone full of convic

ven if a part of me for somewh

ut to hang up wh

n't answer me.

I o

ust because he has something on me, doesn

kay th

'm n

. I haven't been okay since the mome

feels like I'm neve

*