ow begun to hate the most cam

are

ne and myself again. I will not imagine for you to use me to be who you are now because I know what we had was equally important to you as well. Anyway, I will no longer waste your time I just want to

nothing about that otherwise I would have broken down in front of him. Which is the last thing I wa

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re good people. You shouldn't go through this and blah blah from people I didn't even know. I never knew these words can be so hur

truth is I was distracting myself from this harsh reality. I wanted to know why Ryder is the person he is now. Why did his eyes that hel

n front of people, well that's what I learnt to be, from my father. He always said, "Be strong or people ca

family came and said consoling words. But the truth made me want to cry. The truth

sat at the extreme right. Occasionally, I was glancing at the en

left, seeing my parents sleeping peacefully; I don't want to use any other word other than sleep oth

ugh willpower to prepare a speech. After a long one-minute silence which

time with you forever but I have to finish this series or I may die out of curiosity and my mom laughed at that. How wrong was I, I didn't realise what I said was stupid until now? Do I regret seeing that series? Nooo." I chuckled humourlessly and continued. "Do I regret saying that to her? Yes. I never thought the time I had was less. Never thought the promise of forever never existed. I am no

anything. I knew that just like me, if she opened up, she will cry, which is something I do not want

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loved, and saw him like their own son. I used to feel jealous seeing the way my parents care for him but felt happy that my family love him and I don't have to convince my parents; he

ere making me feel dead. If someone had told me that this was going to happen, I would have made him to go to asylum. Well, now, I know the things I t

n't breathe, felt that the ground should swallow me up, wished I was with them. I kept on asking for their help, kept screaming a

whenever I see Ryder in a distance, just that thought made me stand up from the ground and turn around but saw no one? I am imagining things again. This has started from

the bed, I fell into deep slumber. I saw a beautiful dream where my parents, Ryder and

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n bed. I didn't talk to anyone. Uncle Nat tried to talk to me to cheer me as possible, but seeing that I will not cha

stay with me and cheer me up. Now when I am feeling wors

mail for me. What shocked me was the sight of Mandy standing on our door porch on soaked in rain with red puffy eyes. I called her in and the moment I came near

my clothes; she took it and went to bathroom to change and I also changed into new clothes. When she cam

sobs. I asked her what's wrong, and sh

ou apologi

e me more confused, seeing that she never lied. Which made her bad at lying to me. But I chose to ignore it,

lly I wanted to be alon

that there's a behind meaning to it. "We had plans. To go job hunting aft

myself in work is the best way to do that. I am going to go to the company tomorrow." I said with apparent determination in

t will only make you remember what you are trying to forget and I know you are not the person to be cold to

e this. Our lives need not be like this, but the way we decided it to be. And so, I decide

this is what we wanted, and this is what I am going to do. At least in that way

to get and prepared myself for it. How wrong was I t