The One He Never Put First

take his ex-wife to the emergency ro

d - she was having a baby. I just wish he would'

ve been bette

. For a while, it was the best thing I'd ever had. I

hink that was what made it wo

he effort a

car

ven anything and everything

on random days. Sometimes it would be cute little sentences

ing, he would then come back from work later that day to ex

without my knowledge. I'd been so mad because all the clothes I'd been washing ended

ove for you won't." He'd whispered to me and

d always said a queen like me should never bother herself wi

my colleagues had a thing for me so he wan

urity guards. I think all is partly to do with th

tter what I was going through. Talk

h other's c

t

started off happening every now and then, he would miss dinners because of 'work'. And t

e. That's not the person that he is, at all. Especiall

g on, which is some

ful man in the country right now. He's al

ded that was it for him, relax - he married young and the marriages didn't last very long. He'd decide

ght at the end of a ver

self wholeheartedly to someone that he loves. But when you

the demons he'd accumulated through the many years. In my case

ts wo

ot three kids in total with three of them to the 'simple' fact that these were people who meant the w

it couldn't have been that bad, could it? Yes, they were his ex-wives but

e night as we laid in bed, and when they would sh

ap. Because he'd said that about me, I was forced to then be 'understanding' all the time, even when I really didn't understand,

sed my mind up for a while until I'd decided I wasn't going to do

on

hing we fight about

I know will never change. So when they call, I put a smile on my

unced, I make them a nice meal becau

han me disrespect me, I 'try to understand

ling and showing up, when his kids don't come around,

ruggle to sleep most nights. He sp

that

r through the misery of always be

be the one he

this baby is not go

elly at the thought then swerve a little to

lease call

ired of that reque

stupid fight we had before he left, I just need him to

for me. The incredible passion

s he doesn

hed the voicem

ntment come out i

ves again, I won't. If he wants me to be his pretty

s phone and tell me that he's ok a

ch that I don't notice the aggressive dri

t I'm too late because not too long after

for a

y seemingly disfigured body and th

until I realize it's too thick to be water and it's dripping ou

smile when I reach it without having to stretch too much

ething about being married to a man who's old e

in love. I

e hasn't answered my last 200

w up for me, just like he'

unds again, I feel my heart getti

stil

oblems. I'm sorry I was a horrible wife to you. And I'm sorry that I don't have any family so you're goin

much Aaron. Nev

message then I feel my

se not l