d the luxurious hous

n here so many times but each time I come back, there is a new something

e wonder when I feel

time to look around. Let me s

stairs and I

the view that meets

my room, I won'

ifferent from where I slept when I

would have excited me on a different day, but not t

I say

ged." He says. I can see hope in his eyes. Hope

s nice." I force a smile and

feel sorry for him, maybe we will be able to start

my room if you need me" h

my hands. Any girl my age would have screamed out in joy

all from me, telling me that I don't need them, but that

d and hug onto my n

" You would have totally obje

nd close

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kitchen and see what fancy food would be in it. But here I am before thi

n an ass, but he was a tidy lad. His lap

on the shelf. He would

ghts in my head. I open his closet and

ove one of his hoodies. It's red and very attractiv

g me, so it's perfect. Next, I lay on his bed a

pens with a loud sound

with an anxious

Are you ok

oak." I just

me and sit

crying, have you

nd all, but all I do now is bro

he bed and looks

ear the place

ssary. This is Ben's room. L

e didn't mean it. He just want

cup. "He won it when he was fourteen. We had just moved here.

Ben was a promis

epted into coll

his mind and got accepted to study marine engineering, the

." I didn't know how loud I had s

ha

without permission," I exp

and wait for his response

Did he do that

imes" I

ing that it was only

a tear from my eyes. I t

you now, right? A

no

ver this toget

ean my eyes with my

environment. And coming to terms with the fact th

grieving and comin

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my pictures. I'm zooming in on a picture

my father's car and I don't bothe

opens and he en

Dad,"

and his breathing is

ask. " You look

" Just had to get

and I see a big s

y gifts from my dad over the past few mo

to me and stands w

y feeling its shape. I can't just place

pen it." My

as he has said a

, books, books. Textbooks, exercise books,

orms me. " You are going to start attending

t kind of dum

me about anything,"

new you were going to start school

st ruined my nice evening. I was having a very nice time wit

still grieving," I tell him. " I

w much more ti

ht of that, but

r or six mon

laughing? He asked me a question

months, are you

nd you don't get a mum twice in li

r. " I love you, and I love Ben, but t

s going to sch

early isn't moving

n would have wanted

n't he see that I'm not just ready

al. I need to prepare very well for it, both mentally and o

to yourself. You are going to school ne

y. Why is he trying

I'm not just ready." I try to break it down for

you that you are ready. You are mor

ear to roll down my cheek. " Y

e. I'm going to do anything in my power to sto

that I treated B

He didn't go to college even though he

king in my company, the manual section. He sorted out product

ny? He didn't tell me anything about it, and I'm

ose to give college a

what exactly is he

if I want to start high school?" T

he will allow me to sit back at home si

hakes his head. " I doubt if you w

so is hi

't make me go

d right now. I know I'm getting

ht. You are going to high school and that's

tand up. " You are v

has this amusing

." I gesture my hands. I have

t." He hol

ifficult on me for no

e I care about you and

throw my

g you like so you will have to send

hear him and tu

upstairs leaving me to handl