ors. I feel like the woman I've just spoken to is completely differen

night she was wearing pants and a white top that seemed to hang from her shoulders. The topmost button was left undone, too, and though her cleava

gh, but nothing compared to when she has her hair down. There's just something sensual about a woman whose shiny locks are flowing freely

rganized or composed as she usually is. It made me realize how hard she's been working. I know sh

isoriented Felicity. I want to mess her up even more and then hold her and tell her everything will be alright. I wan

is different. I want her so badly

ing has

have been blurred earlier, but it's there and I still can't cross it, though

u

ration. The pen holder and the pad of stick

er-bound notebook hidden beneat

ersonal collection of affirmations and inspirational quotes tha

ate if Felicity left it on desk. I'm

page and find it filled wi

alive, that I have a job and a roof over my head, but

hoa. That

scrutinize the cover. I

not right to read someone else's diary. I should just put this down witho

ca

of Felicity's thoughts. If tonight I saw Felicity out of her usual element, w

ew lines, I caugh

m New York, but it's been two years. I imagined her having fun with friends on weekends, catching a late night movie, going to a

to kn

read the journal starti

boss is counting on me, after all. He has these intense black eyes and this perfect dark brown hair, like really dark. And don't get me started abo

does she? I have caught her st

I kno

are just a line long, like how she's tired from work or she

s harder than anyone in this building. And his head is full of brilliant ideas

Then again, I also like his serious expression. I think he l

for a few minutes after work. I look forward to it, but I wish

been feeling

s trip. He's in Berlin. I

Felicity has less work so she can relax and go home early. I thought that by leaving her behind, I was letting

things she's n

n't mind going back to being a child a

tacos. They're i

nt so I could start planning for that trip across E

zed what I want to be mor

me by surprise eve

rld and climb the ladder, maybe even become a top-ranking executive who would sit beside me at important mee

pushing a baby strol

ther. If anything, what I'm struggling to accept is the fact

y single and stay by my side l

y had buried between the pages. I have a feeling the

. I want to know what it feel

to be a little rough. I want to experi

els to have sex while blindfo

orms in

sure has some wild sexual f

here'

uth, claiming my lips and worshiping my breasts. With his fingers, he will make

thing because I don't think I could read any more. In spite o

would now. I have an urge to go to her apartment

ng me over and over that I'm Felicity's boss and I should act like it, reminding m

nswer is

e else will. I almost wish I hadn't read it. I'd be in less pain now. Then ag

ut her now. I swear I'm

myself with work to make my 'n

ose midnight drinks with