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and taking in as much 'rod' as I can. It is the only activity that can pause my unhap

a lot. But the laughter I share in

? I get to transform into a beauty, an astoundi

of me. Lucas's only moment of hating our friendship is when I dress like a woman, cling

e me go easy on him. He's begged me to stay away from him when I birth my drag que

h no stable job, relationship, or home, he is the reason my life still fe

down a job for long. I always get fired for skipping work. I lack the passion and patience to d

onship ends before it even begins. As for housing, I sleep anywhere I find, Lucas's place sometimes, but most

ither. I live this reckless life off a few stocks I invested in. They yield enough to keep

shackles. Like I am living under a curse. More like I am a puzzle still missing its final piece. Every d

d Lucas after countless gam

en returned his focus to picking a new game, asking if

ing from my past life I need

interested. Not that I blamed him;

hat I mean.

ar. "...we just finished a ton of games which I beat your *ss at each, of cou

someti

ink up and tell me what you wish to eat. O

g like a twenty-three-year-old me with no job, no lover, and no per

already infected by your chaos. All I want right now is

!" I chimed

wn his beer. And trust me, I knew w

t guess what? I can't have it. I won

not have mercy for him. "Gre

n't even remember what it feels like to have a girl ogling me a

ed again, obvio

ri

oing clubbing without

just asking for space. Let me enjoy

bored wit

he club getting busy. Other than that, clubbing without Lucas is boring. No matter how much

s bloody straight. We have zero romantic attraction.

rely my fault. Lucas can get a girl while I am off doing my thing, but the moment I return, the gir

t me, smile, and laugh, but from a distan

search for him, not even to share a smile o

Lucas confronted me in the

," he snapped. "Because I don't get

t I am here for myself, not for you," I s

o drunk to miss that you have

attracting eyes to us. Though I am not sure if they ar

Lucas," I whispered so

counter minutes ago? You

even had a drink yet; I have just been

onfirmed it. But I couldn't f

id loudly. "Your stupid feelings have

. "Too bad for you, lover boy, I am no

could swallow his saliva. I stormed into someone at the door, who stood l

and I am a MAN!" I

join the dance, intending to forget dealing with Lucas, I met th

und with twice. But tonight, I needed a familiar fac

hell?!"

with me after slapp

.

ain? And with an annoyed s

mped into me from behind. I

t move. Not even when the oth