nc

e again why I

't have a choi

t Starbucks, will

smiley faces, a yawn, and then the pictu

t let you

paced back and forth, back and forth in my living room. Nervous ener

xed me more th

eft hand again

ch and started my deep breathing. In for eigh

only time I hadn't done the whole cracking, breathing, relax

a sex

een n

had

d some fun bruises in places n

me back to the

ning my first few lines. I mouthed the words th

ow in my throat. "... fighting for the bad.

t raw enough; it felt forced. I tried

n't feeling it. When had I ever been so obsessed over someone that my sole purpose in l

a

h a groan, I licked my lips and envisioned her standing in front of me. The forbid

for the bad." I envisioned myself take a step forward as my fingertips grazed her wrist, the erratic pulse giving way to her feelings, though she

ut of my vision, causing a near h

d to my feet an

as she held out my coffe

neck in anxiousness. "... practic

drown me in th

smile tickling the

, I cleared my throat - loudly - and opened the bag of Skittle

uzzed; I p

is the b

dn't want to fire you on t

ound the living room, her face imp

nd chewed. The sugary tartness reminded me, yet agai

e better t

Bans like I'd done a million times on the first day on set. Nerves would always be a part of my

bag of Skittles in the cup holde

ping it would somehow center me. I was still re

er s

reaking

ne wen

from my fr

Break

sed the phone in with the Skittles.

if I checked it while driving, so I waited an agonizing eight

Security was everywhere - walking around, talking in their radios. Jay

erves and glanced

y you're living. Don't think of anything else other than getting that ac

you get

ttles out of the cup holder then

hem around with my tongue until they were tiny,

*

e time to over-think and over-analyze everything. Granted, I'd already done a ton of table reads

was the

the ba

cided to pen their story, and, because of her celebrity status, it was quickly picked up by a production company. By then, Jaymeson had already s

weird, since he an

way I was just

e day in, and already

aying Nat, but I seriously had a rough time feelin

n times before, but

cenes, on the beach, on our first day, and I was alrea

ur balls in your sleep." Jaymeson said in a

real professional, Jaymeson

t done on the first take so I don't have to cause an on-set accident where I set y

I thought Demetri was hot for Nat, so doesn't that mean I need to be

hould never h

ofessional. That's why you cast me, because in a sea of Hollywood

ble in the whole looks department, or so

alo

e Jaymeson. Women tattoo my name on the

?" Pris asked, sneaking

such-" I wrapped an arm around Jay

a thrill, signing elderly ladies tits. Hey,

" I nodded.

sement. "On that creepy note, I'm ready.

en Jaymeson gripped my arm and tug

in one take, man? Seriously. Ever think that if

fro

e're here all day trying to get this scene right. I may be kissing

nodded. "He does i

ss. You know

ays ASS with a donkey on i

he blanket. She lay down on the sand while I

meson said in a s

e asked, leaning

uth than her eyes, so I really could conjure up some

t the rea

ed up. Our lips met and then, somehow, for the first time since I didn't know w

could be heard

st out

eeth a bit jarred from

mouth and gave m

the one to ask this, but did you have a kissing double

lly seaside wind biting into the back

th at all times, toss in a few groans, possibly a breathy moan." He pointed to Pris. "That's on you, l

ned to freeze there as the cold wind struck me. Just wonderful. On my

walked back

d over P

ke

t. Already they looked irritated, from the sound tech to the makeup artist. The worst possible thing was shooting

e gentle this time, her soft

lf in the right state of mind, which, to me was always the breaking point before the kiss, where you're thin

t the re

heavy, I focused on her lips, li

I fe

the

t

a

losing my mind at twenty-two. Out of the corner of my eye

acy I'd ever tasted in my entire existence. My tongue swiped along the seam of her lips as I dug my hands into her hair and deepened the kiss, tugging h

mo

absolutel

was awkward as hell being turned on during a scene, but it was simple human anatomy. If yo

Jaymeso

back an

uth with the back of her

he first time he tried was like watc

nks,

next shot, so you can take a few minutes and check out your tr

ou

lso the set for the music video. We're

re

wned. "Are y

and felt my face heat. "Yeah. Sure. W

t day is frowned upon," Jayme

away and pointed behind me. "