ries to start conversation by asking marcel about his new friends. Marcel starts rambling about how nice and perfect are the girls living in our colony, I catch myself listing intently

oys too. That reminds me I was thinking to have a small party tomorrow so I can get to know them better, if that fine with u mom' he says clearly s

w it's been a long time since u have bee

ies and even more before time and I

im proposing to me with a big diamond ring in front of the Eiffel tower.. Who doesn't want to think about stuff like this after all. It was my favorite pastime. I don't like to think about all that anymore because in reality it can never be that simple. I get saddened by the thought that all those dreams can never come true, that maybe I can never find someone who loves me in the way I want and I love him back. I have had many people proposing to me in the past but they were never someone who I wanted, I couldn't be interested in them or even talking to them even if I tried to. I dismiss my thoughts of my miserable life and decide to read a book. I am confused which to read again between 'After by Anna todd' or 'fifty shades of grey'. I am insan

s worth improving unlike me. I am no Tessa and that's why I am going to end up alone without my Hardin. I love him, I really do. I know he loved me too but it wasn't enough, not only for me but it wasn't enough for him too. I wish he cared more and made an effort to be who I wanted. After everything he has made me been thru he owes it to me .We almost had the relationship like Tessa and Hardin's, he always came back an

till now with a slight headache so I think I should go to sleep. I lay in the be