t with marcel. I can't believe after last night he would act like this. I at least have to know why he is behaving this

as possible. 'Heyo , sup' he replies

t night

wrong impression here, I don't think I am the man

way since last year but like always nothing is simple in my life He kind of rejected me so I don't want him but out of somewhere a piece of me wants him. . It's like a hunger, I didn't know existed but now that I have felt it I want it all. I can't stop desiring it. No matter how much I try this thirst for him doesn't seem to fade. Not now not ever it feels like it will remain with me forever and ever. This alcohol is making me insane. I can't think clearly at all, I just know that I want him. I can't stop myself and message him to come to my room. I don't know what I am going to do or say when he comes.

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ust someone, none of your business' I start closin

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that I am lying or does he knows me to well. Seeing the tequila bottle and shot glasses he asks, 'are u drunk?' '

that I am here do u want to do something?' 'I don't k

ay loudly. I shouldn't have said that. We were both hanging out as friends and it's completely clear he

and myself right now, he's a jerk how could I ever think that something

eber high beat song, it makes me tap my foot spontaneously with beat to song. The alcohol also makes me want to shout the lyrics and dance a little but I try control myself. Why did I even come with him after that insulting reply! I am too drunk to go home by myself so I can't even ask him to stop, and to be honest I am also kind of hu

he pasta, I can help mysel

en't so bad then. Just then I notice it has started raining outside. Noticing me looking out the window he says 'Let's get out of the car' 'What? Why?' There's no one on the road, the stalls are also about to close, while the sky thunders it takes a light black color, only the white lights of the street and the car's headlights are